Brooks’ Birth Story – Part 2

Brooks’ Birth Story – Part 1

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So where did we leave off?

Oh yes, my epidural had fallen out & I had to be given a second injection. Fun stuff {not really}

At this point it was around 2:30 in the morning, I was 7cm dilated, my pitocin dosage was up causing contractions every 2 minutes, I was feeling every single thing and even though I had an epidural administered 12 hours previously –  I was told that it fell out because I was sweating & moving around in the bed so much trying to get comfortable, but I was doing those things mainly because I was in pain due to the epidural not working. Go figure.

The anesthesiologist called down for another epidural to be administered ASAP and they were saying how much of a rare event it was that an epidural would fall out. Needless to say I wasn’t in the best mood to be hearing this because I was in  horrible pain and about to be stuck in my spine with a needle for the second time. I was not a happy camper.

I was hopeful that the second epidural would be more even throughout my body and cause both of my legs to feel the same amount of numbness but that wasn’t the case. Eventually the epidural kicked in and the majority of the pain subsided but the pressure on my back never really went away. It was a very uncomfortable night.

I was in and out of it for another few hours when I woke up in extreme pain again around 5:00am – at this point if I had been able to get up and walk out of the hospital, I would have. If I had been offered a c-section at this point I likely would have taken it too because there was no relief – The doctor came in again at this point and told me I was 8-9 cm dilated. It still felt like I had FOREVER to go and I was exhausted at this point. All the nurses were so sweet trying to keep my spirits up telling me that baby would be here soon, but I had been hearing that for HOURS at that point that it wasn’t very comforting.

Another hour went by and I started to feel worse than ever – I began vomiting up my liquid meals around 6:00am and one of the nurses excitedly said – “It’s time to have a baby!” Apparently me puking was a good thing in terms of progress, the doctor came back to check me and I was indeed at 10cm and ready to start pushing. Before my labor experience I sort of imagined the pushing part to go hand in hand with the 10 cm dilation, but it was a completely different beast, one that I was not prepared for. I had heard from most of my friends that they pushed for 20 minutes, maybe an hour and it wasn’t so bad – most of them told me getting the epidural was the worst part of labor for them. Clearly that was not the case for me.

The nurses coached me to push in 10 second intervals, holding my breath, bearing down – 3 times, back to back, during my contractions – followed by a break. They counted to 10 and I closed my eyes and pushed my little heart out. Charles kept me hydrated with water in between the pushes & with wet towels on my head – I think I was a bit out of my mind at this point and I just remember saying over and over again to Charles “This is horrifying” and “This is nuts” – I made the decision early on in my pregnancy that I would be getting an epidural to ease the pain and in that moment I was feeling much more than I had ever wanted to.

The pushing took everything out of me – it was the most intense part of labor. It was the hardest thing I have ever done and in that moment it seemed never-ending. The 10 second intervals seemed to go on forever – I kept asking the nurse, “How much longer?” but no one would really commit to a time. Mentally I wanted something to work backwards from, if I had a time goal, everything seemed more attainable and bearable – but no one knew how long this part would take.

I assumed an hour or so.

I assumed wrong.

After an hour I began to feel like the epidural had begun to wear off {again}, because I was able to feel my legs, but at that point there was nothing to be done. A midwife was in the room with us at this point and she suggested I try some other positions for pushing – I had been on my back and was having intense pain in my lower back area so she suggested turning around on all fours to give my back some relief. That worked for a bit and then the midwife suggested using a birthing bar & squatting while pushing, to let gravity do it’s thing. That also worked for a bit but after another hour moving around to different positions & pushing I needed a break.

Sometime between hour one and hour two of pushing my water broke – which was way messier than I could have ever imagined – and the doctor noticed that there was meconium in the liquid {which means the baby had his first bowel movement in the womb} so they had to alert pediatrics to come down for the labor to check the baby out. Not the best thing to hear in the middle of this crazy process but it motivated me to keep pushing & get that baby out safe & sound.

Also during this time there was another shift change – and the nurses we had grown attached to in the last 12 hours had to say goodbye & some new faces came in to take their place. There was chaos in the room at this point because of all the people coming and going – I think there were 8 doctors & nurses in the room, so there was a lot going on, but at least I knew at this point that these would be the people to help me bring this baby into the world.

First Moments with Baby Brooks

When it was all said and done I was pushing for 3 hours – from 6:00am – 9:00am – longer than I ever thought it was possible to push, but it was worth it in the end because Brooks was born at 9:05am safe and sound. Because of the meconium we were unable to do delayed cord clamping as he had to be immediately checked out by pediatric doctors & cleaned off a bit, but I will never forget that moment that with that final push he made his way into the world – the first thing I saw as they carried him across the room were his toes & I remember saying “Charles, he has your toes!” – very random but it’s the first thing that came out of my mouth.

Post Delivery

I was on the edge of my seat waiting to hear Brooks’ first little cry, to let me know everything was ok and when he did it was the most beautiful sound. It was a bit of a bummer not to have him immediately come to my chest after birth, which is what was initially planned, but obviously him getting the medical attention he needed was our #1 priority. Charles & I both had tears in our eyes when we finally got to see our little man for the first time, it was a special moment when the doctors held him up.  Charles also got to cut part of the umbilical cord after Brooks was cleared by the pediatric doctors, which was something he wanted to do.

peanut

Post delivery I was in a serious haze – not sure if it was all the hormones, emotions, drugs or lack of sleep but I felt out of it for a while. It was crazy that this little man we had been waiting 9+ months to meet was finally here, in my arms. I also had a bit of excess hemorrhaging which the doctors had to deal with after the placenta delivery, which also could have been a cause for my haze – but the good news is that I didn’t tear at all during delivery – Win!

Obviously the 25+ hours of being in the hospital for the induction, including the 3 hours of pushing was worth it to have Brooks here – happy & healthy – but it was the most painful, mentally & emotionally exhausting and toughest day of my life, which turned into the most beautiful day once I got to see Brooks’ sweet face. I would do it all over again if I had to for my little man, but if I had the choice, I would probably opt for a c-section to avoid the pain, but maybe that’s me just being a wimp.

Holding Brooks

People have said that if you can run a marathon, you can birth a baby but I’ve run 3 marathons and I’d take the pain from running over the pain from labor any day.

I’m not sure if it was the pitocin which made everything so much more intense for me, but obviously having the induction when we did ended up being the best decision for the safety of Brooks being that he had passed meconium in the womb. If/When we are blessed with more children, I would still love to go into labor naturally and see how that experience differs from being induced {word on the street is that #2 is a quicker/easier delivery – but I’d like that in writing from a doctor before I get too attached to that statement}  

Familyof3

After having some time as a brand new family of three, Charles notified our families of Brooks’ arrival. My parents came up the day before to stay at our house and watch Jackson while we were in the hospital – everyone assumed the baby would be born on Tuesday & when they didn’t hear from us for so long everyone started to freak out a bit – so they were thrilled when they finally got the call to come over to the hospital and meet their new grandson.

little man

Fun Fact: Brooks is actually his middle name but it is what we will be calling him on a daily basis.

babycakes

Father Son

After the craziness of delivery and introducing Brooks to his grandparents we spent 2 additional nights in the hospital. At first I didn’t think I would last in the hospital that long but I really needed the rest and it was nice to have nurses and lactation consultants around to answer all our questions.

No Pacifier

When we weren’t entertaining visitors at the hospital, Brooks & I caught up on some sleep and the three of us got to know each other a little bit more as a new family of three.

We Nap Hard fingers

And we can’t wait to see what the future holds for us all!

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12 Comments

  • Reply Jessie February 13, 2014 at 3:50 pm

    Such a wild ride isn’t it?? Worth it though. 🙂

    Man, this takes me back! My first baby was 21 hours of labor, 2 hours of pushing only to find out she was sunny side up. Thank god the dr was amazing & able to flip her around! Then I had my second baby. Rough pregnancy, esp with a toddler keeping me busy. But at my 38 wk appt I was 3cm. At my 39 week appt I was 5cm (half a cm more than I was when I got the epidural w/my first!!) And finally, at my 40 week appt I was 7cm w/no labor. I was admitted to the hospital, the midwife broke my water at 3:50pm, I walked the halls, had some almonds and at 6pm I got the epidural at 9cm and by 6:57pm I had a baby! Seven minutes of pushing!!! Insane, I didn’t even miss a meal.

    So…yes. Second deliveries/babies are waaaay easier! The first one is like some cruel initiation into motherhood. But yay you did it & he is precious. Congrats!

  • Reply Haley February 13, 2014 at 6:21 pm

    So sorry your experience was so frustrating, but I’m glad you ended up with such a cute, healthy little man! 🙂 He is seriously so cute and your photos are too precious.

  • Reply Katie D. February 14, 2014 at 11:12 am

    At 20 weeks pregnant, your story both terrifies me and reassures me.

  • Reply Heidi @ Idlehide February 14, 2014 at 3:56 pm

    Wow- quite the story! Thanks again for sharing it. I’m a marathon runner as well and I pushed for 3 hours as well. I wonder if we are more muscular and therefore it’s harder to get through for the baby?! Everyone I talked to said they pushed for 20-30 minutes so 3 hours was such a shock for me and I kept telling my husband I would rather run 2 marathons that do the pushing. It’s truly the hardest thing I’ve ever done! Totally worth it though, hey?! Congrats! 🙂

  • Reply Patty O February 14, 2014 at 10:09 pm

    What a beautiful story – loved all your photos of his first day of life! Yes, Brooks is certainly worth all of your pain, a pain you will soon forget!

  • Reply Annette@FitnessPerks February 17, 2014 at 10:11 pm

    He is so darling!! Congrats on the birth of such a cute boy!! Don’t worry, you will forget all that pain & frustration in no time!

    I had my baby 15 days late (I didn’t want to be induced and she was fine, so my doc let me), and my labor ended up being 30 hours long….you’d think she’d have wanted to come out by then?! But NO. hah. I am glad I went without drugs/epidural because it was so neat (and SO painful) to experience it all, and now I’ve forgotten how it feels, so I am like sign me up again! hahaha.

    CONGRATS!! <3

  • Reply Brittney February 18, 2014 at 12:17 pm

    Aside from your induction and epidural issues, a lot of your labor/birth experience sounds similar to mine! I also threw up a lot and was in labor way longer than they thought I would be, and pushed for over 3 hours. It was rough, but totally worth it!

  • Reply Di Andrea February 21, 2014 at 9:08 pm

    Beautiful story! I am just starting my pregancy journey (7 weeks, 1 day) and I am excited and completely mortified of whats to come!

    Congrats to you! He’s adorable!

  • Reply Heather February 27, 2014 at 2:49 pm

    One of my biggest fears for when I have kids is my epidural not working right. So sorry you had a rough time but I know it’s so worth it! He’s so cute!

  • Reply Tamara July 10, 2014 at 10:48 am

    Thank you for sharing! This confirms my desire to not have pitocin, an epidural, or an induction as this whole experience sounds absolutely miserable. From what I’ve heard, pitocin is what makes labor so killer and it sounds like you would agree. Glad baby Brooks arrived healthy and happy!

  • Reply Hal July 30, 2014 at 10:41 am

    I agree completely with Tamara. The Pitocin makes contractions so unbelievably unbearable, that they give the epidural (an opiate very molecularly close to heroin) to relieve the pain, which ends up stopping your contractions, and you then need more Pitocin and the cycle starts all over again. Your story confirms this, as do many other women’s stories of horrible labors where interventions were administered. A close friend of mine had a very similar story to yours, except she tore clear to her anus because she was pushing against her natural contractions. Furthermore, once her son was born she said she felt nothing towards him until he was a couple days old (the worst possible scenario and a side affect of her never naturally releasing oxytocin).

    I am very glad you have a beautiful and healthy son. I wish you, and many other women didn’t have to go through such horrible labor.

  • Reply Kay @ goaloflosing.com January 20, 2015 at 8:34 pm

    Reading this now as I am getting induced at 6 a.m. So nervous and excited to finally meet my baby girl! Congratulations on your healthy baby boy!

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